We continue to wait for our house to sell. Waiting is hard. I thought our move would come swiftly. I thought the Lord would have us list, move, and we would be settled in a brief time. The longing for home, the longing to be settled continues. This will be my thirty-sixth move and, for however long the Lord allows, I’m ready to stop moving
The Lord prompted this move, therefore, I’m unsettled here. We are ready, the house is ready. I feel trapped in the wait although I’m free in Christ. My home is not here on earth, and I know the feeling of being truly and fully settled will never come until I am home with the Lord. I want to go home (here and in heaven). My heart is with God and my heart belongs with God.
Yet, I wonder, what am I missing by not living in the moment? The thing I’m wanting, hoping for, will come. My misery and whining won’t help anything or anyone. I only miss today. I miss seeing God work in the here and now. I can’t experience the now if I’m living in the past or in the future. The now is only experienced in the now.
Unsettled feelings come from looking at all that is unsettled. The settling of my soul comes from keeping my gaze focused on God. Only He is unchanging, unmoving, and unfailing. God is The Rock, the place where I am home. In His presence is fullness of joy. I don’t want miss God. I don’t want to miss His joy. I don’t want to miss today, for what I’m wanting, needing, longing for, is not a place, it’s in the presence of God.
“…we know that when these bodies of ours are taken down like tents and folded away, they will be replaced by resurrection bodies in heaven—God-made, not handmade—and we’ll never have to relocate our ‘tents’ again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to move—and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what’s coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we’re tired of it! We’ve been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what’s ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we’ll never settle for less.… When the time comes, we’ll be plenty ready to exchange exile for homecoming. But neither exile nor homecoming is the main thing. Cheerfully pleasing God is the main thing, and that’s what we aim to do, regardless of our conditions… ” ~ 2 Corinthians 5:1-10 (MSG)
“You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” ~ Psalm 16:11 (NIV)