Several months ago, the Lord shared in my spirit some amazing and wonderful things that would come in the near future. With excitement and anticipation, I scurried about the house preparing for what I believed were our next steps. Surgeries for us both put a stop on any plans. As health issues slowed us to snails, at times I wondered if I correctly heard God.
Then one day, the number forty kept coming to my spirit. Sensing a countdown had begun, I jumped in to again prepare the house. A week later, sweet hubby received a phone call from a recruiter. Nothing is certain about that job possibility, yet we wonder if this will be God’s open door.
Mixed emotions come with every move. After thirty-five moves, you would think it would be easier. However, questions about logistics are ever-present, and the concerns for all that is required to move to any new location. Can we easily sell the home were in, find an affordable home in another city, locate a good church, find doctors, friends, etc.? All that messes with my head, because moving is not easy! The negative what if’s were far outweighing the positive what if’s.
I sensed a heavenly disappointing sadness in how I viewed this possible change. Why was I thinking the worst possibilities instead of thinking the best?
Why wasn’t I trusting God? God’s love is unfailing. God is a good, good Father who wants the best for His children. God works all things for the good for those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose. God knows the plans He has for us, plans for a good future filled with hope.
So why look for the negatives instead of the positives? Why am I not leaping in joy that God is leading? Why am I not trusting God for His best? Oh, my attitude makes me so sad. My good, good Father has shared amazing things, and I haven’t been rejoicing every moment at what is to come.
Oh Father, please forgive me. Forgive me for my negative thinking, for my worries, and lack of trust. Forgive me for not trusting You for the best. Refocus my focus back on Your goodness. Retrain my brain to rejoice in Your faithful, unfailing love. I will stand and watch to see what You will do and how You will lead. I trust You for the best, for You are the best! “Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you. The Lord is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.” ~ Psalm 143:8 (NLT), Psalm 28:7 (NLT)
“Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” ~ Isaiah 43:19 (AMPC)
“’I say this because I know what I am planning for you,’ says the Lord. ‘I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future.’” ~ Jeremiah 29:11 (NCV)
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” ~ Romans 8:28 (NLT)